If I died in college, I would’ve gone to hell.

If I died in college, I would’ve gone to hell.

That may sound harsh, but it’s a life changing realization I had to genuinely grasp.

img_9663-e1522235984262.jpgThe person I was then, the person I am today, they’re two very different people. While they share many positive characteristics such as a servant’s heart, openness to talk to anyone, forgiving nature, and willingness to embrace tasks benefiting and helping others while sacrificing one’s own desires, I was far from a walk through the pearly gates on my way out.

The world we live in today, is a world of self-gratification.

You want it? Go get it… Sounds fun? Go ahead and do it… You want to eat that? Eat all of it… That’s going to make you happy? Embrace it.      

We are Eve, in the garden of Eden. All of these sins, are the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. We have the entire garden, all of its glory, at our command, but Satan simply makes the one fruit we can’t have, the most appetizing to our sight. How bad could it be if it tastes so good, feels so right, or makes me happy right now?

We want to play God, {make our own choices, live our own way} and we lose.

Growing up, I always “understood” the “Rules”. I’d say I understood the things the Bible told us we’re “bad”, But did the Bible ever really say that? I “knew” sex was bad, but now, I read about how it is a gift – A gift to be shared within a marriage. I knew gluttony was wrong, but now I see how much healthy choices make me feel and live so much happier. I felt the guilt that would come with lying, stealing, or gossip, but now I know the relief of knowing that my conscious is clear and I have had no part of those wrongdoings. There was never meant to be a list of rules to follow…. but rather a relationship to be had. A Saving Grace of Love, Peace, & Joy.

Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky. -Philippians 2:15

You see, the difference is I have a personal relationship with my savior Jesus Christ. -Often times, we are so willing to invest in earthly relationships, yet offer no real time to a heavenly one unless it is convenient. Oh how guilty I was of this.- By no means does this mean I’m perfect, for we are all sinners in a sinful world. What it does mean is that I started to read his letters to me (the Bible), spend time in his house, embrace his other children, and speak to him, and slowly, I noticed changes. I noticed it was easier to say no to the fried pickles. I noticed I stopped putting myself in positions that made the bad choices too easy. I noticed that when people came up to me saying, “I need to talk to you about something” my stomach no longer fell through my butt because I didn’t know what I had done wrong this time.

By this gospel you are saved, if you hold firmly to the word I preached to you. Otherwise, you have believed in vain. -1 Corinthians 15:2

Come back to your senses as you ought, and stop sinning; for there are some who are ignorant of God – I say this to your shame. -1 Corinthians 15:34

The massive checklist of sins I always felt I had to avoid, was in fact no checklist at all. My father above loves me. Man, he loves me more than anyone on this earth ever has. As a parent, he wants to guide and protect my life. He wants to see me flourish and to do far more than I even know I am capable of, and to do so he gave me a few tips along the way….

“Darling, don’t give yourself to that boy, the future is unpromised and he himself isn’t even sure what he wants from his life.”

“Sweet Girl, have a treat, but be sure to nourish yourself so that you can be fit enough to carry the children around the nursery, run with the youth at the Easter egg hunt, and aid your stepfather in tasks around home. Wouldn’t want your elders to outlive you.”

“My Child, see the best in people, and let nothing come out of your mouth that would cause others to stumble away from my love.”

Matthew 7:13-27 states, “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles? Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them. “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name, drive out demons and in your name, perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’ “Therefore, everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

While there are a plethora of important, powerful, and moving passages in the good book, this one, to me, is probably the clearest.

In my college chapter of life, my fruit was not so sweet, and my House was a bit shaky. I chose to be of this world, and while I knew the name of Jesus and believe that he was the son of our father God, I didn’t know him personally. I didn’t talk to him, or desire to understand him. I didn’t thrive off my studies or try to stand out from the crowd. I chose to be a house on the sand, probably a nice house, with lots of friends visiting, but no doubt the water came and washed that house away. There was no foundation, no strength, until I found my strength in the one greater than anything this world has to offer.

For in him you have been enriched in every way. -1 Corinthians 1:5

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. -1 Corinthians 1:18


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